"don't quit your daydream."
it's sort of a stupid thing that i see all the time, and while i like to think it's idiotic and cliche, i've been listening to that advice a lot lately.
my dreams aren't necessarily "realistic," or "stable," and that's okay. they're my dreams, not for anyone else but myself.
in the short term, all i want to focus on is making the things that need to come out of me. i want to create art that gets me through my struggles and lets my demons out. in that process, i hope to find comfort in the familiar hold of my camera, film and digital, and start to produce work i'm proud of in that medium. in that same vein, i want to apply to penland school of craft and hopefully receive a scholarship.
if i do get into penland, i want to save money, purchase my plane tickets, and get ready for the best two weeks of my life, potentially! whether i get a scholarship or not, now is the time to start saving. my biggest goal right now is to get a new car - a jeep, let's be real - and if i can save the scholarship money i have, i should be getting close to halfway there.
after that, it's to get a camper and start renovating it. i will have to either move somewhere or be okay with staying in emporia for another year or so, and i'm not sure that i am okay with that. i am going to have to weigh the options of staying, saving, and being closer to the dream of living on the road, or move and take longer to accomplish that. right now i'm picturing the year i am 25 being spent on the road, and that gives me just over three years to get myself into that situation.
i also want to have one great experience every year. this year, i'm hoping it will be penland. if not, maybe i'll plan a trip to puerto rico for a week... ya never know.
jordan's dreams are big, and jordan's not afraid of them anymore.
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