2013.

as i spend this last night of 2012 cuddling up with my love, i'll be right on the brink of a new part of myself. i have so many plans for this new year, and that includes new priorities. of course the things that are important to me now will still be important to me tomorrow, as well as in a year from now, but i need to realize a few things about myself.

firstly, i'm getting stuck in an entirely client-driven photography rut. while yes, client shoots are great - they earn me some cash, i get to experiment with different people, and i am able to give those clients a portrait shoot they'll always have - i also need to take the time to learn more about ME, starting with photography.

so, i've decided to take on another 365 project. i tried this a couple years ago and failed, but i have more of a concept this time. my last attempt was just "take a picture everyday," and this time i plan on a daily self portrait. 2013 is going to be, like i said, the year of me. i'm learning about myself, and that should include photography.

not only will i be able to think outside the box and get creative with composition because there is no sense of embarrassment, worries about looking dumb in front of someone else, etc, but i'll also learn even more about my newish camera, and let it become more of an extension of myself. i plan on taking my camera everywhere, and trying to document each day within the one photo. (i'll post these on facebook on my photography [page], if you're interested)

secondly, along with the "focusing on myself" idea, i'm going to lose weight. i debated about going into this on my blog because i've gotten a lot of new readers lately, but i decided to take that leap. i know so many girls my age that find it easy to stay in shape and look fantastic, but i'm not one of them. and when i think about that, i know that a lot of those girls probably talk badly about others with bodies like mine. the thing is, i don't blame them. i talk badly about my body.

however, that's going to change. if you read this blog or watch my youtube videos, i'm going to be updating weekly on what i'm doing fitness-wise, how it feels, and what i'm looking like. yes. i said what i'm looking like. that means all of you hecklers will be able to see me from a few weeks from now until the end of the year, and see how my body has changed.

more importantly, i'll be able to see what i'm working for, and maybe some other girls in my situation will, too. don't get me wrong, i have some cattiness in me. if you have ever talked to me in person, you probably know that i'm sarcastic, and judgmental, and that it is usually directed toward other girls. thing is, i'm really trying to put this into perspective for me, and others like me.

now, i started this blog to make me happy. me. not you, or your friends, or my parents, or anyone else. me. and i know that getting fitter and eating better and being more creative will make me happy, and this blog is going to be a tool to help me get there.

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i know this post has been really different than usual, but i wanted to keep everyone posted on what to expect in the new year. the 365 project will promptly start on january 1, 2013, but the weight loss/fitness stuff may not make it up for a week or so.

thank you for your support! happy new year!

<3 JS

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